A Mother’s Story

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They arrived shortly after breakfast, during the respite between chores and my second cup of coffee. What a pair! Bright eyes bejeweled each precious face; a whisper of animation radiated from each creased smile. Was this a true aura, emanating from the remnants of the prominent role they had played in their owner‘s life?   I believe it was.  They had returned among the living after a seven-year closet hiatus, bearing memories and blessings to share with everyone.  That might not seem long to you, but it was forever to a grieving family.

You see, after Mother had passed on to a finer, gentler locale, the two dolls had callously become shrouded in a shock-and-woe blanket. Over the ensuing years, an innocuous event ripped through the family fabric, tearing its fragile foundation to shreds.

It all began when Father realized he was quite ill at ease living alone.  His children could not provide what his lonely spirit craved:  companionship.  He ached for the closeness of another human heart, someone who could love him deeply with a caring spirit. This desire eventually found succor in the love of a delightful woman.  Remarriage showered his world with peace and joy, slowly releasing grief’s icy grip on his heart.

Family and friends visited often, except for his two daughters. The presence of a stepmother had driven a wedge between them.   The daughters rumored about that the new mother was throwing out everything their mother had held dear.  Withholding their affections and contact with Dad was their way of saying, “We do not like this woman living in our mother’s house and sharing your life.”  They stood resolutely in this position…for four long years.

The new mother tried to tiptoe around their feelings, disturbing none of their mother’s possessions that remained in the back bedroom, now looked upon as the inner sanctum.  She had entered it early on in the marriage and redistributed an assortment of cookbooks that gathered dust in the closet. Some books stayed, some donated to the public library, all with Dad’s oversight and permission.  Inevitably, the one cookbook that meant the whole world to the daughters turned up missing. This innocent deed completely severed the final scrap of a relationship left between Dad and daughters. The vagrant book was found later but the damage had been done.

Three years later, the new mother felt a stir within her spirit to dispel the sacredness of the bedroom, hoping to bring the light of day back into it.  Lying low in the dimness of past days, it had gathered dust, spiders and mites.  Braving the certainty of creepy-crawlies skittering up her back, she opened the door . . . and entered. Nothing happened! The walls did not come crashing down, the ceiling remained intact, and the room actually beckoned to her, “Come on in, dear one.”

Peering through the dim early morning light, new mother’s eyes rested on a doll cradle nestled on the floor near Mother’s vanity. “How precious,” she thought.  Stepping closer for further inspection, she spied a life-like doll staring back at her.  It was then “Oh my!” escaped from her lips as another cradle, embracing another doll, suddenly appeared in view.

“I think these babies need to get some fresh air and see the light of day,” and with that, she bore them tenderly out of storage and into the living room. Settling them in strategic spots, she stood back and admired these priceless little babes.

You see, dear reader, these were special dolls to Mother and, after her own children had left home, they helped ease her loneliness. She had chosen them from a doll shop, opting for hair and skin colors to match her girls.  She’d glance over at them as she worked in the bedroom or passed by in the hallway, smiling at them as if they were real, for the time being. Somehow, I believe they too felt they were real.

After their special reappearance in the household, things seemed to go better for Father and the new mother.  Family members warmed up to Dad’s new wife and found out she wasn’t really a conniving old woman after all. Sure, she would never replace their mother, but they knew she brought joy and love back into their dad’s life.

I wonder if the presence of these two little ones somehow triggered forgotten, happy memories within the heart of this family, enabling them to accept the change that had been brought upon them.  I would like to think so.

{Based on a true life situation}

Happy Mother’s Day, 2013

Womb Talk

Newborn Baby in Mother Hand

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1 day:
Conception

22 days:
Thub dub…thub dub…thub dub…thub dub…

“Gee, Papa! You were right…this is fun! It’s goin’ thumpidy thump. I feel alive!”

28 days:
“Wow! My back is gettin’ stronger, and my liver, kidneys and ‘testines are growin’ too.”

“How much longer will it be, Papa?”

35 days:
“Papa, you’re so creative. Look at my eyes, legs, and hands! They’re almost shaped. Whoopee! I’ll be playin’ in no time!”

42 days:
“Hmmm…Papa, I think I can think now, and my mowf and lips are right here! See? I’m even gettin’ fingertails!”

49 days:
“Oh, look at me twitch my nose and toes! I’ve even got eyelids now. Watch me kick and swim in this watery pouch!”

56 days:
“Papa, thank you for all these things called organs! And, gee, my bones are turnin’ from that cart’lage stuff into harder stuff!”

“Wow! I just got fingerprinted!”

“Sssh…I think I hear people talkin’. They won’t hurt me, will they? Is it dangerous out there?”

63 days:
“Oh Papa, my toofers are coming in, and these fingertails will come in handy for scritchin’ the itchies.”

“Lookee…my head goes this way and that way. Am I cool or what?!”

“Oops…hiccup…hiccup…yep, I can do that now too!”

77 days:
“I can breeve a little too, Papa.”

“Oops, watch out…I went potty!”

84 days:
“I’m hangin’ on by my thummies! Whee! All systems are go! Am I ready yet, Papa? Is everyting ok?”

(first trimester is abortion’s prime-time)

91 days:
“Blahhhhh! Did you hear that noise I made? Ha Ha!”

“I’m learning to use my lungs by breevin’ fluid.”

“This thummie comes in handy. It kind of ends up in my mowf lots of times.”

“Was that a ‘No,’ Papa?”

98 days:
“I’m feelin’ stronger, Papa. Is my heart really pumpin’ quarts and quarts of sacred fluid ev’ryday?”

105 days:
“Papa, I can taste now too. I can’t wait to eat that peanut butter sanwinch you said us kids would like!”

4th month:
“My bones are growin’ fast and fillin’ up with that marrow stuff. And look…I’m almost 8 inches long!”

17 weeks:
“Wow, I’m dweamin’! All right! This IS fun!”

21-22 weeks:
“What did you say, Papa? If there’s trouble, I’m developed enough now to be saved? Saved from what? Are there bad things out there, Papa?”

20th week:
“I hear my mommie, Papa!”

(earliest stage that partial birth abortions are performed)

“Mommie!”

“She can’t hear me yet. I’m not afraid now, Papa. Mommie won’t let anyfing bad happen to me. It’s safe here, nice and warm and comfy.”

5-6 months:
“I’ll be needin’ some air to breeve pretty soon. This fluid is yucky!”

“Watch me grab that umbilical cord and spin around. Whee!”

“I’d better rest up; I worked up a sweat.”

“I’m really growin’! I’m almost a foot long and weigh over a pound.”

7-9 months:
“My eyetoofers are cuttin’ through already.”

“Watch these peepers work! I‘m almost all grow’d up. I can sense that Mommie is getting’ grumbly.”

“HEY!”

“WHAT’S GOIN’ ON?”

“I’M FALLIN’, PAPA!”

“I’ve dropped down into a slide. This is scary! Papa, where are you?”

“Waaaahhhhh!”

(reblog)

My Tribute

Catholic bells held

 

My Tribute

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Psalm 150

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Praise the Lord!

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Praise Him in the heavens

Praise Him for His power

Praise Him for His mighty acts

Praise Him for His greatness

Praise Him with music

Praise Him with dance

May everything that breathes

Praise the Lord

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Praise the Lord!

Amen

 

NaPoWriMo   Day 30

[This poem–a-day for 30 days has been quite an experience.  Your support has been greatly appreciated and most gracious!  Thank you and God bless!  --Jeanne]

 

Hope

Woman Praying

 

 

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A little whine

A wee bemoan

A sighed whimper

That’s all I’ve sown

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The body rebels

Stabs my soul

Pains my mind

Make me whole

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Gird my loins

Chin up, I say

Today’s gone

Another day

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Hope lies there

Raw and bare

Through the fog

Somewhere

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Rest in Him

Hand it o’er

Share the pain

Let it pour

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Praise the Lord

Sing a psalm

Ask and seek

His sweet balm

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Amen

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NaPoWriMo     Day 29

AWED

Priest Holding Communion Wafer

 

 

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Holy

  Holy

    Holy

       . . . Is the Lord of Hosts.

 

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The whole earth

    . . . Is full of His Glory.

 

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I saw Jesus!

 

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Woe is me!

I am undone!

A person with unclean lips

Dwelling amidst unclean people!

 

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 I saw Jesus!

 

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King

   . . . Lord of Hosts!

 

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Is. 6:3 & 5

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NaPoWriMo   Day 28

 

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Charmed

hogged

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[A limerick for Charlie]

 

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There once was a hog on a farm

Who thought that he could do no harm

He took the first prize

There his body lies

Hanging by a hook with his charm!

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NaPoWriMo   Day 27

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The “G” Psalm

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The G Psalm

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Psalm 145:1-9

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God is Great.

God is to be praised Greatly.

God’s Greatness is unsearchable.

God’s majesty is Glorious.

God’s wondrous works are Great.

God is full of Great mercy.

God’s compassion is Gracious.

God’s Glory shall be praised by all the saints.

God’s kingdom is everlasting to all Generations.

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Amen.

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NaPoWriMo   Day 26

 

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A RANG MA

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A Rang Ma

(An anagrammed poem using chiefly the letters in my name, bold, CAPITALIZED and italicized.)

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I WREST the BREW

SNEER ANEW

BEWARE the STEW!

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ENSNARE BEARS!

BEAR the BANNER

SANE ANSWER

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BARE TREES

BEES and WRENS

REST SERENE

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SEE!

 NaPoWriMo    Day 25

 

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Believe

Stained Glass Depicting Jesus Christ

 

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Do you hear him?

Do you feel him?

Do you know him?

Do you love him?

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No matter who you are

No matter where you live

No matter what you’ve done

No matter what you look like

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Jesus Christ is calling you

Jesus Christ is seeking you

Jesus Christ is loving you

Jesus Christ is saving you

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He is the Son of God

He is the Messiah

He is the Redeemer

He is the Lord and King

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Answer his call

Open your heart

Repent of your sins

Receive his forgiveness

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Believe he died for your sins

Believe he is the Messiah

Believe he is the Son of God

Believe he is your lord and king

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How about it?

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Do you believe . . . in Him?

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I’m praying that you do!

Amen

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NaPoWriMo   Day 24

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But Now I am Found

Prayer Shawl Hanging from Rod

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© Jeanne E Webster

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One day at a time

Sweet Jesus

You taught us to pray

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Not for yesterday

Not for tomorrow

Only for today

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So I’m praying today

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For my family

My friends

My enemies

My self

The lost

Those who stumble

Those who fall

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Help us all this day

Father, we pray

Somehow shine

Through this maze

Called life

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For you are

Our God

Our Creator

Our Father

Our only glory

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Among this clay

Smooth out the cracks

Redraw the lines

Recolor the tint

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That this world

Will see only you

In this body

This spirit

This sinner

This lover of self

This pilgrim

This “good” person

This crying soul

This marked entity

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Branded with your cross

Forever and ever

This weeping one

Humbly prays

This day

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Abba Father

My God

My Redeemer

My Lord

My King

My Savior

The great I AM

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Amen

NaPoWriMo   Day 23