Dark Thinking
©2014 Jeanne E Webster. All rights reserved
“You’ll always be my little girl.”
What did that mean?
Memories still tumble down
That rocky hill of childhood;
Strange things . . . scary things
Deep dark and screamy things
. . . thought the little girl.
Rock, rock . . . thump and bump
Three kids sat all in a row;
The sofa became their “carni” ride
They rocked and rolled and screamed!
Back and forth with such hefty force
They drove holes into the wall.
Memories haunt the little girl
Even though she’s now grown old.
“You’ll always be my little girl.”?
There were no hugs or comforting words;
Those came from Gramma’s arms and heart
Not this mommy dear.
Can’t fathom those dark blurbs from the past
What did they all mean?
The thumps and rocking so hard?
All part of the ugly scene?
Just childish images of a bogeyman,
A phantom father’s brutalities?
Can’t open that door . . . and what’s more . . .
The little girl doesn’t want to!
My dear, Jeanne: This is a healing work, a work that God allows us to offer up for healing powers. I so identify with that little girl only my bogeyman was a bogeywoman. It’s interesting to me that the spelling dictionary accepts bogeyman but women aren’t supposed to be bogey women. I’ve asked God to explain so many times and in what I thought was his total ignoring of me, he led me to healing arms that would allow me to heal wounds.
Thank you, Sheri, for sharing your experiences. The mind offers many mysteries. One wants to understand them yet doesn’t have a clue as to the “why and what-for’s.” Seems that the Lord will answer, in His time. Shalom, dear friend. 🙂
Yours?
Dark indeed!
The things that come back in thoughts! Trying to work up a fiction story. Thanks for your input, Linda. Blessings!
Very deep thoughts …..
Thanks……
Neeky
Thanks for your input, Neeky. Working on a fictional story.
Blessed weekend and be safe!
Warm and fuzzies,
Jeanne
Intense poem!
Great and what I need for this fictionalized piece. Thank you, Michele.
Blessings,
Jeanne
Yes, deep and dark thoughts. Jesus leads us out into his glorious light!
Wing His Words,
Pam
Thanks, Pam, for your insight here. Trying to come up with a fiction story based on facts.
Have a warm and safe weekend.
Blessings,
jeanne